I said good-bye to my Boston Handmade group yesterday. I can't believe how hard that was to do. Geez, no one died!! So why was it so hard!! *laugh*. Through the group, I've made a bunch of wonderful friends and have possibly - hopefully! - built strong foundations for some lasting relationships. The community is so special and so unique that it was very hard for me to leave. But I knew that I *had* to do it, in order to focus on other things I want to do-- my long term goals. The things that need care and watering and feeding and pruning regularly. The things that are so important to me, that I have strong ambitions to do, the very things that have been getting short shrift for a variety of reasons. No more. The things I will be focusing on in the very near future -- the ONLY things I will be focusing on -- are Children's Illustration and Art Licensing.
Who KNEW it takes so long for someone to extract themselves? I have been kind of like an octopus, with eight hands in eight different creative places. I'm exaggerating of course. I don't have eight arms, and I have not been balancing eight concentrations. But for th past, oh, I-don't-know-how-long, I have somehow cultivated this position where I have ended up being pulled in so many directions. Somewhere along the way, I got swept up in things that had little to do with my true, over-reaching long term goals. Also to be fair and honest, some of my goals changed. Really changed. (Yes, people, we are allowed to change our goals as our lives and our focuses change. The only person you need permission from is yourself.) So I needed to pay attention to that as well, and figure things out.
Anyway, I'm feeling great and a big sense of renewal because, though I have not yet concluded my work in pet portraits, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel new, I feel refocused, I finally have made the tough decisions that I had to make! I know what I want, how I want to spend my time and on what in my creative life. And I know what I am willing to give up to accomplish this.
I have one more pet portrait before I am finished with pet portraits completely. Her name is Rosie. I know she's going to be a beauty. I'm excited to work on Rosie's portrait and now I have the mental space and clarity to do it. I am going to complete the final sketch this week and then, on client approval I will move forward with the ink and watercolor. It's a big important moment for me, working on Rosie. I will give her all I have.